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addiction, break free, change, grief, life, living, mindstate, pain, self transformation, state of mind
Stuck in the wrong lane,
I’m indicating right but they won’t seem to let me out,
This lifestyle is all wrong its not what I’m about i just got in to have some fun but now i straight up can’t get out. Fall down 4 times get up 5 I break the cycle for a week only to meet defeat its a wonder I’m still alive within tainted ill mindstate, the scene is a circus and the clowns are clouding my judgement. I’m filling the void within with junk and feeling zero fulfillment avoiding a reality i do not want to come to terms with, I need so many different people to distract me from the emptiness within but befriending fiends just leaves you tired and fried – high and dry time and time again.
Evade normality all you want but you only suffer in the end seriously getting high just feels like a mixture of purposely pissing away my purpose and wishing away my future time and time again I just wind up feeling worthless. I dont want to get tied up with pointless loose ends and live life like some kind tangled up mess this isn’t me it’s not who I set out to be – the time has come to untie this stubborn knot and fucking break free